Leg day at home + some May thoughts

Yesterday core went well (i updated what i did in the two week overview post), don't feel it as much today as i did last week which is kind of annoying cause i like to feel the burn. Maybe i didn't do enough. I forgot to do one exercise (side hip raises) and then flaked on the other one (hanging knee raises) so it is my own fault. 

Today is leg day at home. I am speaking to my best friend again so i am waiting for him to get home from work so we can work out together. My squats and deadlifts are going up in weight (from 4 to 8kg) but it should still be relatively easy for me. I am dreading once i go up in weight, because i am so weak lol. I am also going to try and do my bulgarian split squats with 10kg dumbbells (7.5kg warmup first). 

I am also thinking to start cutting my calories. I am really not happy with how flabby my core is; i feel like my body looks leaner, but there is a lot of flab. I might try to go to the gym daily to do some light cardio (like walking up hill on treadmill), but it depends on how i feel idk. I am trying to not make excuses for myself, but it is difficult since i deal with some anxiety, however i know how important it is to expose yourself to things you don't like/are afraid of, so i just have to overcome that. So let's just say: from tomorrow on i am going to the gym every day to do cardio, and let's see how that goes. I'll keep you updated.

I also want to start cutting calories because of the flab. I tried to cut calories last week but i felt so lethargic, so i am going to try and do it again. I will give myself "cheat meals" on Wednesday and Saturday; like have whole grain pasta on Wednesday's, and have something more fatty like pizza on Saturdays. I used to do this 2 years ago combined with running and doing light muscle exercises daily and my body looked really good, so lets try to keep this diet the entirety of May! I stopped counting calories and protein too so i will pick that up again starting tomorrow.

Update: leg day went really well. Instead of normal squats i did sumo squats cause they feel a bit better on my knees than normal squats. Hip thrusts with 20kg was insane, but i will keep at it until i normally can do them with 20kg. I kept falling over doing my 10kg dumbbell squats, which was kind of annoying, but i will also keep at it until i can do them normally (without falling over lol).