Tuesday, April 11, 2023

Gym tomorrow

Sooo yeah, gym tomorrow. What am i gonna do? I was thinking to do some things that i don't do at home. Thinking about doing the bulgarian split squat, squat, hip thrust etc. at the gym right now seems a bit too daunting, so i was thinking to do things that i can't do at home:

  • Warm-up (20 minutes)
  • Hip abductors 3x15
  • Leg press 4x15
  • Romanian Dumbbell Deadlift 3x12
  • Cable kick backs 3x12
  • Leg extension 4x15
  • Stretch

I think this is a pretty decent routine for tomorrow, and i will only have to ask them to help me out with two machines (the last two ones). I was thinking to maybe add an extra day where i do arms/shoulders, but i will have to think about it. I might just look up some calisthenics i can do at home for my arms/shoulders (i knew some dudes in the past who grew their upper body pretty big just by working out at home, and since i don't wanna be that big it should be easy), but i might have to buy dip bars. I still have to look into my barbell situation, since i think that will already help a lot with getting stronger and more confident, and plus i will be able to do squats and deadlifts at home. I might also look into a 10/15kg dumbbell on a 2nd hand website. Today i did the ab routine that i did last week as well, but without the 30 minute stretching.

I also just figured out why it says on Google that between 9 and 11AM most people are at my gym, that's because they have group classes at that time. I want to slam my face into a brick wall right now. The same btw goes for 7 till 9PM. I wonder if there are way less people actually working out downstairs during those times (group lessons are upstairs). I will have to start figuring that out. I'm not one to wake up early, but if that means there are like 2 people at the gym, I'll gladly wake up as early as i need to.

I was first thinking about going to the gym tomorrow at 10.30AM, but i might just walk away from home at 10AM (that's when 2 classes just start). I also now wonder about the evenings. I'm sure most people will try and go after work, between 4 and 7-8PM. The gym closes at 10PM. I might start doing drive by's to see how crowded it actually is in the morning from 9 till 11 and in the evening from 8 till 10. I am actually REALLY curious right now, and also kind of hyped, and secretly hoping that the gym is way more empty than it is whenever i kept going, cause i thought those were the quietest times.

Also knowing how crowded and packed those group classes are, most people probably would want to avoid the gym, because there are limited parking spots, and probably also the dressing rooms are overcrowded. I am actually filled with hope now, but at the same time a little bit nervous, because i am scared that there will actually be more people, or more toxic people at the time that i now want to go. But we will see. I said in my previous post that i can't just go to the gym and try things out, but figuring out when most people are at the gym is something i can figure out, so i guess i will have to make due with that. 


Filled with a weird kind of hope.

Whiney vent

Tomorrow is gym day again and i want to kill myself... okay it isn't that extreme, but a part of me feels that dying is easier than facing whatever comes tomorrow, which is obviously ridiculous. The last few days i have been trying to read up more about going to the gym etc. and i have seen that some people say that having strong back muscles is important for preventing injury. Other than that, i have read a lot of stupid bullshit, as always. I am still so annoyed with how elitist the fitness/bodybuilding community is. 

I feel like i am in this weird area where i sit in between the total noobs who know nothing about bodybuilding and the more intermediate people; this means that i know enough, but not enough at the same time, which is very frustrating. 

I still doubt the two leg days program i have made, i have no idea what i am doing is right, and it is not like i can just go to the gym and find out. My "job" currently is kind of on the creative side of things, where i can just try out stuff and if it doesn't work, i can try something else until it does what i want it to do (obviously with pre-existing knowledge; but sometimes also no knowledge at all). You can't do that in the gym. I can't just go to the gym and try stuff and see if it works or not. You need to have pre-existing knowledge. You kind of need to know what you want to do before you go. I can't go to the gym, wanting to build my legs, and then just doing squats in the hopes that builds my legs. Besides that, how do you properly do squats? I don't know. And the worst thing is is that you pay for all of this. If you want someone to tell you how to do stuff you need to pay extra for it. I believe in most gyms here it is like 40 bucks per session, which is INSANE, especially if the trainer already works in the gym (and does nothing) (mind you i live in a country where minimum wage is law, and you get paid a lot).

All of this is so tiring man, and i'm only into this for like... barely 2 weeks and i feel so overwhelmed. I want to tell myself that it is okay to go to the gym and do things wrong, but it isn't. It isn't right. You will hurt yourself along the line and you will embarrass yourself too. I wish there was a small body building gym in my town so i could go there and ask some big papa bear to help me out with my exercises; i'm sure they would be nice enough to do that. But i'm not, and i'm stuck in a gym with young people and i hate it and i hate it and i hate it. I don't even hate exercising. I actually find it quite enjoyable. I just don't want any people around. I sound so whiney.



Monday, April 10, 2023

Still sore

My body still very much hurts, especially my legs, but it is not as bad as it was yesterday. Today i am supposed to do leg day at home, but since my legs still hurt so much, i might do a mix day where i do both core and legs since my core barely hurts anymore, but then i'm unsure what to do tomorrow so i have to think about it (i will work-out later today).

I am also babysitting a dog today from one of my neighbors (i do that sometimes) so we walked to the store in the middle of town to get her some snacks. I got at least 3 km (1,86 miles) in so that was nice.

And on a more personal update i have decided to take some time away from my best friend because he has been an asshole to me lately. I am not going into details 'cause it doesn't matter, but i feel like i deserve better than that type of treatment, so i think it is just better if i distance myself from him for a little while.



Edit: instead of making a whole new post i'll just tack on here what i did today:
  • Bulgarian Split Squat 1x12 3kg, 2x10 7.5kg
  • Hip thrusts 1x20 7.5kg,  2x15 10.5kg, 1x12 20.5kg
  • Squats 2x12 3kg, 2x10 7.5kg
  • Single leg RDL 1x12 3kg, 1x12 7.5kg, 1x12 10kg
  • Nordic curls 3x10
  • Calf raises 2x10 7.5kg, 1x10 10kg 
If you want to know how exactly i do them and my thought process behind my routine, check out my first post about "leg day at home". In the end i also walked about 4-5km today, and i even did some running in the rain with the dog which was fun haha.

Sunday, April 9, 2023

Happy Easter!

Today, on Easter, i wanted to do core and some arm exercises but i woke up and my entire body hurt; my arms, my core, my legs. So today will be a rest day haha. I wont celebrate Easter so i will probably just clean up my apartment, since that is very much due.

I will also eat some nice foods today. The store had some tofu scramble which i picked up and i will prepare that now for brunch, together with a pancake. Then for dinner i want to eat tortellini. Yesterday was supposed to be my "cheat" day, but i forgot and just focused on eating protein heavy. O yea, i also almost ate 100 grams of protein yesterday which is my most yet! I was at 99.95 grams... imagine my annoyance.



Saturday, April 8, 2023

Toxic fitness culture

Yesterday i talked with my best friend about toxic fitness culture and how annoyed i was with it after i came across this video: 


I told him how it felt like the Dark Souls community and he agreed. He said that he feels that the fitness community somehow brings out the worst in people and that it seems that no one cares about you doing better (as a beginner). He also said it is difficult sorting through all the information that is out there, which i agree with a lot.

I feel like i am putting so much pressure on myself; that i have to be perfect before i do any exercise in the gym otherwise i am a LOSER. And it's like... dude... i have to begin somewhere, right? How can anyone expect a total beginner with 0 muscle mass to do anything correctly in the gym. Sometimes i wish i was overweight, that way people would go like "oh look at the fat girl trying to lose weight!".  And when i am doing something wrong they just attribute it to me being fat. Now i am just a skinny girl at the gym and most people probably think i am an instagram thot or whatever, and i'm not. I don't even care if other people think my body is hot or not, i want to be confident in my own body, and that is it. I can't help it that i have decided to go for stronger legs, and that most of those exercises also happen to be exercises insta thots do a lot for their butts??? 

Something i did realize about those "fit girls" is that most of them have very flabby cores, and even though they work out their glutes a lot, their legs don't have a lot of muscle definition. That is definitely not what i want to look like.

It's annoying knowing that people have preconceived perceptions of you when you are in the gym working out, especially as a woman. I wish i didn't have to overthink these things and i could just close everyone out and focus on myself in the gym. It is definitely difficult to do that in the gym i go to, because no matter where you are, you can see everyone at all times. It is difficult not to notice people and what they are doing, rather than the opposite. At least my next two leg days will be at home so i don't have to worry about that right now.

Barbell

I've been looking at some barbells with weights on the internet to gauge the cost and stuff. I found some pretty cheap barbell weight plates but the hole was 28MM which doesn't fit with most bars. I mean, i can buy a 28MM bar but if that store stops selling the weights, i am fucked. So i definitely want to go for a 30MM bar with weights. It seems that i will have to dish out at least 200$ to get the minimum. The worst thing is that i want to mainly use the barbell for hip thrusts (also for squats) but with hip thrusts you can progress with weight real fast, which means that i have to invest in more weights. I will have to check how much money i have on my bank account (i haven't checked in a while) to see if i should make this purchase, otherwise i will have to wait at least 1 or 2 months, which is fine, i guess. 

I found one website that has a sale right now where the weights and barbell are really cheap but the problem is that on a surface level a 20kg weight for 40 bucks doesnt seem that bad, until you realize that you need two of them. I also found a "beginner" set up for 80 bucks that gives you the barbell with 30kg worth of weights and that seems to be the cheapest deal right now. I don't think i have to go with the most expensive or best gear since i am a light weight and i can barely lift 10 kg anyways lol. But i will still look around more to see what bang i can get for my buck.



Leg day at home

Today is leg day bby!!! I jumped out of bed, washed my face, ate half a nut bar, drank some tea, did some stuff around the house, stretched, put on some loud hype music and went straight for the leg day at home in my pajamas cause why not! (my pajamas are just a big tshirt with sweatpants so... it's not that different to what i wear to the gym tbh). 

Our leg day today at home consists of:

  • Bulgarian Split Squats 2x12 (7.5 kg) 1x12 (3kg)
  • Dumbbell Squat 2x15 (3kg) 2x10 (7.5kg)
  • Hip Thrusts 1x15 (0kg) 2x15 (7.5kg) 2x10 (20 kg)
  • Single leg dumbbell Romanian Dead Lifts 1x15 (3 kg) 2x12 (7.5kg)
  • Band kick backs 2x15 (medium band) 1x12 (hard band)
  • Nordic curls 3x12
  • Calf Raises 2x10 (7.5kg) 1x8 (10kg) 

Okay it didn't go as seamless as i am writing here (i struggled getting up and wasn't in the mood to workout at all, but fake it till you make it?). I also had a lot of trouble doing certain exercises today and with certain weights. I don't know if that is because i am supposed to get my period soon or if it is cause my work-outs at the gym haven't been as lucrative, but i don't know. It also took me about 2 hours to do all of my exercises. I was focusing a lot today on my posture while doing the exercises. I tried to do a few of them in front of a mirror to make sure that my posture was good. It went pretty well, but i am still learning. I guess it is muscle memory too.

For the Bulgarian Split Squats i was struggling a lot with the 7.5kg weight. I don't know why. I used to be able to do almost 15 with them, which is around the time that i decided to sign up to the gym so i could lift higher. I couldn't do my last set with the 7.5kg weight and i had to take short 10 second breaks within my 7.5kg reps. Kinda disappointing.

For the dumbbell squat i started with a low weight to make sure my posture was good (i did it with just body weight before that while looking at videos on how to squat properly) then i went up in weight once i felt it went well. Going higher in weight made my posture kinda worse, so i might just keep going with the lower weight for now and end my set with a higher weight.

For the hip thrusts i started with the 7.5kg dumbbell and i later added my3kg dumbbell and my 10kg kettlebell to it. This is also one of the reasons i want a barbell for at home, so i can do this more properly at home, and with the proper weights. It is very clumsy to do it like this, but it is all i have. My first set was just with bodyweight to make sure my posture was good.

For the RDL i first wanted to do just a normal dumbbell RDL but i found the single leg one last night, and i wanted to try it out today. It is a lot like a cable kick back and it was very rewarding to do. I definitely felt it. I first did it with a lower weight again and then went to a higher weight to make sure my posture was good (i keep repeating myself LOL).

For the band kick backs i first used my medium leg band and i held myself against my door post. After 2 sets i went with the hard leg band. I could bend my leg higher with the medium one so that one burned more.

Nordic curls is just with body weights and putting my feet under my couch, and the calf raises i usually try to go till failure. I first used my 7.5kg dumbbell and did the last set with my 10kg kettlebell.

I also did most of my work-outs in front of the mirror; it is a little awkward to be honest and i usually position myself in such a way that i don't have to see my face, but i want to make sure i have a decent form going when doing my exercises so people at the gym can't judge me (hehe) and of course for my lower back.



I btw always extensively stretch before and after my work-outs. Whenever i have to go to the gym i take at least 10-20 minutes to stretch at home, walk to the gym, and when i am done at the gym i walk home and i stretch there for 20-30 minutes. On Thursday i didn't stretch after i came home from the gym and i definitely felt it yesterday especially in my right leg. It was very sore in a bad way, and my foot kept cramping up. Not good!

I will probably redo this routine on Monday, but i might replace the band kickbacks with something else. Overall im pretty happy with how it went, but i wish i had someone to work out with so it is easier to correct my form :(

Friday, April 7, 2023

Ab/core/stretch day

After yesterday's disaster (i felt so demotivated i went to the store and bought a bag of cheetos and ate the whole thing which is something i haven't done in a while) we are back today with ab day, which we will be doing at home. I know most people don't have a specific day for ab day, but since i don't really work out any of my other body parts, except for legs, i like to do my core in between days. Usually i throw some arm exercises in there as well and i stretch a lot. Today's ab day looked like this:

  • 3x15 reversed crunch
  • 3x20 bicycle crunches (10 reps per side)
  • 3x20 weighted oblique twist (10 reps per side) (5kg)
  • 3x10 hollow body crunch
  • 3x10 pull-up bar leg lifts
  • 10 minute ab work-out (leanbeefpatty)
  • 30 minute stretch routine

Thursday, April 6, 2023

New routine, perhaps?

Okay so, i think i finally came up with a program that i want to follow. It is not a perfect program, i am aware of that. It probably lacks a lot of whateverthefuck but i am a beginner, i have to keep in mind that whatever i do at the start it wont be perfect. Why is everyone so obsessed with being perfect nowadays anyways? It also happens when you play video games, especially games like Dark Souls; a game where you have a lot of trial and error. If you aren't immediately PERFECT at playing that game people are like "bruh you are doing it wrong" "you aren't playing it right omg". WELL YEAH DOH??? THIS IS MY FIRST TIME PLAYING IT I AM SO SORRY THAT I DO NOT KNOW THE EXTENSIVE MECHANICS BEHIND THIS GAME JFC. And i realized this exact same sentiment in bodybuilding/fitness/what have you.

So yeah anyways, i want to start doing this at the gym:

  • Bulgarian split squats 3x10-12
  • Hip thrusts 4x15-20
  • Barbell squat 4x15-20
  • Romanians 3x10-12
  • Cable kick backs 3x10-12
  • Leg lifts 3x10-12
  • Leg extension 4x15

Is it a perfect program? Probably not, but i will probably see a lot of growth in the first month that i will be doing this. I am thinking about just waddling in on Wednesday, i might go a bit earlier than usual so the insta thot isn't hogging all the machinery i want to use, and just show a trainer there what i want to do and ask them to show me how the machines work and what i need for each exercise. I think that is just the best thing to do right now. Once they have shown me how everything works, i will start working out. I will just do the same weights with everything in the first week so i get used to the exercises and doing them at the gym, and then maybe in the second week (depending on how well certain exercises go) i will split my work-outs up so i can go higher in weights and lower in reps to push myself to the max. I think this is my best bet right now.

Then in the second week (when splitting up the work-outs):

Day A
  • Warm-up (20 minutes)
  • Bulgarian split squats 3x10-12
  • Hip thrusts 4x15-20
  • Cable kick backs 3x10-12
  • Leg extension 4x15
  • Stretch
Day B
  • Warm-up (20 minutes)
  • Barbell squat 4x15-20
  • Romanian deadlift 3x10-12
  • Leg lifts 3x10-12
  • Leg extension 4x15
  • Stretch

I think that will be pretty good, and for the exercises that go well i can start increasing weight, like i am doing with the leg press currently. Gonna implement this on Wednesday and i am not gonna chicken out.

Bodybuilding - just squat bruh - forum rant

In my journey to find out more about the leg press i have been reading a lot of different posts and threads on the Bodybuilding forum and jeez those guys are annoying. People ask questions about the difference between certain leg presses and all they can muster up to respond is "herpderp just do squats bro". That wasn't their question, was it? Most of them also said that there is barely any difference between the different leg presses, which to me also seems like bullshit. That is why i keep saying DO. YOUR. OWN. RESEARCH. I found one thread from 2013 where people seemed to theorize more between the different leg presses, but you still find the occasional "just squat bruh" comments, and overall it seems that no one really knows the difference.

Will Tennyson (whose legs grew insanely big in the last year) (i also mentioned him being an inspiration for me in one of my first posts) said in one of his recent videos, where he showed his insane leg gains, that doing squats weren't growing his legs adequately. I am therefore not saying that squats aren't helping your legs grow at all, i am just saying that they probably wont put a huge bulk on your legs.

"I used to squat heavy all the time and i got nowhere, but the second i started implementing hack squats and leg press, my legs blew up." -Will Tennyson


I think that overall, learning how to squat is important cause it helps with your core stability and you learn the movement properly. I just don't understand that when someone says they don't want to implement squats currently, that it is such a big deal? I understand that they are important, but what are some different ways to grow your legs?

Most guys (especially the ones who are active on forums, circle jerking on how big and strong they are) only know what works for them specifically. I have seen a few knowledgeable posters who seem to really care about bodybuilding as a sport, and seem to hold a lot of knowledge too. Unfortunately, this is the minority. Not only that, but a lot of posters are so quick to judge too.

Before i started this blog i made a post on the forum asking about my work-out schedule that my trainer had made (before properly doing my own research) (which was dumb i know) and the only advice i got was, and you guessed it, SQUAAAATS. Even though i specifically stated in my post that i do not want to do squats (yet). Instead of working with the information they have, and even if they know better, they do not try to work with you. I would ultimately like to add hack squats to my program (i just don't know if my gym has that device lol). I am sure that only doing squats isn't going to grow my legs, so what other exercises could i do? No one mentioned any, just squats.

I am all for proper advice, but these assholes can be so judgmental with their holier-than-thou attitude like they hold the holy grail to fitness. Most of these guys like to have big arms and shoulders, so why did i even expect any proper leg advice from them? It is super funny to me cause why does the "don't skip leg day" meme exist again? Oh yeah, because most men SKIP LEG DAY. I see that at my gym too, almost all men who are there have very toned upper bodies while their lower bodies are just untoned sticks and it is very unattractive. These are the same men who do SQUATS, so if SQUATS was really the answer to growing your legs then explain to me why all these men have 0 definition in their legs? 

It seems that the collective brain mass of the entire Bodybuilding forum is akin to that of a worm, maybe they would benefit from doing some brain sports like chess? I don't think brain gymnastics is working out really well for them.

I am just going to wait a month, make a new account, and ask my original question but add squats in my program to see what the meatheads have to add. If only the squats were missing from my program, then they could've literally just said that? It is so funny how they get so incredibly upset when they don't see squats in your program. It almost makes me not want to do them to see how far i can get in growing my legs, but as i said, i do want to do them cause i do think they are an overall good work-out since they also target your core. 

I have been watching some other youtube videos from guys with big legs who also say that squats are overrated and that you don't have to do them. Like for example in this video from a small Asian man with huge legs called Eugene Teo:


He seems to agree with what i said:

"I think most people should work on getting proficiency in the barbell squat at some point. It's absolutely not an essential movement. Progressively overloading your body over time and being consistent is important so do whatever allows you to do that and you'll get fantastic results." - Eugene Teo

I also ended up finding a leg day thread on the forum where people post their leg days. The OP asked "What are you guys doing on your leg days? Ofc squats but what else? post your leg routine here pls!" and everyone answered normally (except for one guy who said squats squats squats). This thread seemed  very helpful, even though most of these guys seemed like long-time gym goers. It at least gave me a sense of what i should kind of work towards. Oh and as expected, every single one of them does other things besides squats. I do not understand why the guys in my thread couldn't give a rough overview of what a good leg day looks like for a beginner instead of berating me for not incorporating squats in my program. Most normal people don't even dare to go into weight/resistance training territory because of judgmental and non-helpful people like most of the guys in my thread. If you are spoken to like this, who the fuck would want to? Staying on a treadmill is way safer, and at least you can't do that wrong!

Today sucked

The gym today was horrible. I decided to go a little bit later cause Google said that no one was there, which was a lie. Usually Google is pretty accurate with estimating how many people are somewhere (it usually works for all the stores i go to) but apparently for the gym it isn't that accurate. There were as many people as usual, and the funny thing is that i saw some people that i usually see at the normal times i go: i usually go at 11-12, today i went at 2. 

I was warming up on the elliptical and before you know it, a bunch of middle schoolers came in and started to hog the entire weight training area. Everyone who was working out there moved to other sections cause the kids were so loud. It was like a group of 8 scrawny 15-16 year old kids. They made me so fucking anxious with their bouncing around the entire gym. I normally wouldn't care if it was a bigger gym, but it is a pretty small gym, so if they hog an entire area with a group of 8, that will hurt the rest of the people there. I am dreading summer vacation already.

I wasn't able to do my last two exercises, i only managed to do:

  • 10 minute elliptical
  • 10 minute stair stepper
  • abductor 3x15 (25kg > 25kg > 30kg)
  • leg press 3x15 (30kg>40kg>50kg)
  • adductor 3x15 (25kg)
  • romanian dumbbell deadlift 3x12 (8kg>10kg>10kg)
  • cable kickback 3x15 (15kg)
  • resistant band kickback 3x12 (at home)
  • resistance band routine (at home)

I couldn't do the abductor and adductor after each other cause an old man was hogging the adductor machine; he was writing a message on his phone with 1 key stroke per 5 seconds... I also realized that if i do abductor first, i can't go as hard on the adductor and vice versa, so i might just alternate between them in days. The leg press went pretty good. 30kg is definitely too easy for me now. I then went to 40kg which was a bit more difficult, and then i went to 50kg which was a little bit more difficult today for me. I did 6 reps and i couldn't anymore. So i got up, rested, sat down again, and did 6 reps with 50 again. I did this 4 times. My legs were DEAD afterwards. So this is something i will probably keep doing. I got the idea from Will Tennyson cause that is how he did one of his exercises. It really burns when you do that.

I didn't get to do my romanian dumbbell deadlifts because by the time i was done with my other exercises, the kids had moved from the barbell area to the dumbbell area, and i couldn't do my cable kickbacks cause there's this girl who is always in the gym (i swear she's there ALL THE TIME) and she was using it. And i wasn't in the mood to wait, and i was scared that she thought i was copying her or whatever. I don't know. All dumb stuff. All in all, i felt anxious, i wasn't having fun, so i went home. At home i did some cable kickbacks with the resistant band, and i did a resistant band routine to make sure to tire out my glutes.

At least my legs feel exhausted cause of the leg press, but i definitely feel like i could've done more today and i am disappointed. I tried to do some romanian dumbbell deadlifts at home, but my lower back started hurting for some reason so i just gave up. I hate days like this. At least i get to work-out at home the next few days. I remember, some time ago, i followed this routine from a smaller fitness youtuber who mainly works with calisthenics and his routine was INSANE. I might look it up again and do that on Saturday. I am also gonna look into a barbell with weights for at home. I wish i had enough space and money to make my own gym at home, so i can work out in peace. The only reason i wanted to go to the gym is so i can train myself to lift higher weights, and so far i haven't done that at all except for the leg press. It makes me so fucking annoyed.

There used to be this really big gym in my old town where i grew up. That gym was so nice. The way certain areas were sectioned off and most sections were huge too. That way if you were working out in the arm area, you couldn't really see anyone in other areas which helped with reducing gym anxiety. The gym i go to now is just one area and you can see everyone and everything (i know that most gyms are like this nowadays) but i just miss that old gym. 

I also found another gym in my area but it seems more like a personal trainer gym. I am not even sure if it is the type of gym where you can just waddle in and work-out whenever you want. There's also no prices on their website (you need to inquire) so i am gonna assume they are expensive as fuck lol. 

I am also 100% sure my gym doesn't have a hack squat machine which annoys me. There is another gym that is kind of far away from me (probably 8 minutes by car, but i dont have a car) and it seems like a big gym, and i am sure that they have a hack squat machine, but that gym is just too far away. I am just annoyed cause as i said, i have NO IDEA what i am doing. Having a gym buddy would help. And the people who have been going to my gym do not seem like they want gym buddies at all. I don't know anymore. A part of me really wants to give up, but at the same time i know that if i persevere, things will fall into place on their own. I just have to go through the awkward shit phase first, which sucks.  

What i also find dumb is that there are always at least 2 people behind the desk at my gym. They aren't doing anything. It would be helpful if they walked around the gym and helped out beginners with their exercises, but no, if you want that type of help you have to pay for it, because then they basically become "personal trainers". How stupid is that? Having someone help you out with exercising should be part of going to the gym, at least for beginners. I don't understand why it is something that needs to be paid for. You are already there as a worker, you get paid, you aren't doing anything, so why not just offer help to beginners? Absolutely stupid. It makes me want to start a gym myself that is more beginner friendly. Maybe even have an upstairs and downstairs with the exact same machines but let downstairs be for beginners and casual fitness people where workers can help people out with proper posture etc., and then upstairs be for intermediate and hardcore people who require no help and just want to exercise in peace. 

Now i want to rant about capitalism and how everything in life is set up to maximize profits instead of maximizing people's comfort and happiness, but i digress.