Providence! & gym

Since my last post i did go to the gym and i worked out at home (I tried weighted deadbugs! they are killer!!!) and i also tried to stretch more often. But i didn't do enough in my opinion. One of the reasons for that is that i recently gained contact again with one of my good friends. We actually stopped talking in 2022, so before i made this blog. And i constantly missed him a lot. I wanted to write him, but i didn't. I started thinking about him a lot recently and wanted to reach out to his mom to see how he was doing, but providence!!! (i learned that word recently) and we added each other again and are now talking 24/7 basically. There is a time difference but i stay up with him most of the time lol. There's some more personal stuf but i'll add it under the read more thing.

Yesterday i went to the gym in the evening (20.30) and it was raining and almost no one was there! Basically all younger zoomers and a 40something duo and two women on the cardio equipment. When i left (21.40) there were like 2 people left lol. From now on when it rains outside i will always go to the gym hehe. I will write what i did yesterday for prosperity's sake:

• Adductor 1x12 (40kg), 1x12 (42.5kg), 1x12 (45kg) 
• Leg curls 3x10 (30kg) 
• Sitting leg press 1x15 (40kg), 3x10 (60kg), 1x8 (70kg) 
• Abductor 1x12 45kg, 1x12 47.5kg, 1x10 45kg 
• Leg extension 1x10 (30kg), 3x8 (35kg) (+some myo reps)

At one point, during the leg curl, my left calf started to hurt. I think i didn't stretch it properly. So i believe i went down on the weight but i didn't write it down, welp. The leg did not bother me the rest of the work-outs.

As today for DOMs it is mainly the adductors and glutes that have a vague muscle tension. Too bad. I really wanted my quads to hurt.

So in early September i started hanging out more with a male gaming friend of mine and he very quickly told me (after a day) that he had a crush on me. He was overall so, so overwhelming that i felt like i could never catch a breath and figure out my own feelings. I hate that nowadays men are so quick to tell you that they like you instead of letting something grow naturally. It is so exhausting! I've had this happen to me three times now in the last 2 years. Next to that, he knew NOTHING about me. So it felt very strange that he said he had a crush on me. Why? Cause i give you attention and i'm overall a cool person? Because i listen to you? It was very odd. We did not have much in common besides gaming and some tech interests, which is fine, but he kept saying OMG WE HAVE SO MUCH IN COMMON. We did not have anything in common lol. Things like that started to irk me.

I then realized how much he was always talking about himself. Like constantly. All the time. Sometimes when i would tell a story he said nothing and would barely react (i see more women complain about men being like this tbh). So naturally, being me, i called it out. This kind of ruined our flow tbh cause he didn't know how to talk anymore, cause apparently it is very difficult to not talk about yourself constantly LOL. I then told him i think it is better if we just stay friends, but it is very clear that he has an infatuation with me and cannot let me go.

From what i gathered from the little hints he gave me is that he has infatuations with women around him all the time. It's strange cause he is like at an age where that should not be a thing. You should've matured away from that. But he insists that he is not infatuated with me, in fact, he knows it for sure. Very cringe cause it is clearly infatuation. How can you have a crush on someone, or even be in love with someone, who you know nothing about?! I don't think he knows what words mean.

Oh yeah, he also uses AI constantly to write, especially when it is his babble about his own behavior (or my behavior). This also happens all the time btw and is absolutely exhausting. We write like long whiney paragraphs to each other about an argument we had LOL. Even if i was interested in him in any way, shape, or form, the fact that we are already having such arguments so early in is a RED FLAG. That just shows that we are NOT compatible. He will not have it though. He will not listen. 

There are some more things but i don't want to say too much cause it will just identify him or me. But God knows how cringe all this is lol. I wish i could just have my gaming buddy back, but idk if that will ever happen again.

At least my other friend is back in my life and i am ever so grateful <3 He is also very serious about working out and such so it is fun to have someone to talk to about that stuff! I will never get bored of talking to him. I missed him soooo much!!!