Since yesterday i am motivated to figure out how to deal with my ADHD and anxiety when it relates to getting things done like going to the gym and exercising in general and just having a proper daily schedule. This probably correlates back to me trying to get psychological help again through a psychologist. Today i had an appointment at the psychologist place and it didn't go that well. Maybe i am beyond help lol. At least i am motivated now to help myself. Still side eyeing all the "help" people though...
Today i had my meeting at the psych place. The lady i met today i've met twice before and she was always nice. Today she was a bit more stand offish after i tried to tell her something about my observations when it comes to childhood C-PTSD and adults and therapy. Every time i go anywhere for "help" (physical therapy, psychologist etc.) and i talk about my experiences and what i have observed i get a weird cold shoulder from them. Like i am trying to undermine their college degree and years of working in the field. That is not how i mean it. And i think that if they were proper adults they wouldn't take it that way either. Why would you be insulted by someone like me when i am just trying to throw out observations? The funny thing is that they usually do not know how to respond so they give me the cold shoulder or become snarky. Like with the physical therapist when i tried to explain working out and growing muscle to her. And now with this woman and saying that i feel that PTSD rooted in childhood isn't properly researched, or at least the therapies for it leave a lot to be desired. She didn't seem to take kindly to that and just stared at me sheepishly. Oh well...
When i came back from my appointment i did some chores in the house. Since my upstairs neighbors are on vacation (for now, they could be back at any moment) i can just chill in my house without wanting to blast music. My upstairs neighbors are always so loud so it is nice to finally have peace and quiet. I bathe in the serenity of silence. It almost feels therapeutic. Can't wait for them to move away.
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