Physical therapy OVER!

I quit my physical therapy today. And i didn't go to the gym. I asked AI for help for creating more structure in my day.

I went to my appointment and alluded to the fact that i was going to get a new psychologist and a personal trainer. She immediately thought that i meant to say that i wanted to quit. She didn't even ask if i wanted to have one last appointment or whatever. Just nothing. Very strange. In our first appointments, in the  beginning, she stretched my body with me twice. And she said we "would do this more often", but we didn't. I wonder what made her not go through with it. Maybe my body was just too relaxed or something lol. Maybe she didn't feel the tension? I don't know. I just find it odd that she said we would continue this and then it was never continued. I had these problems with my psychologists too. They would often give me homework or they would say "we will talk about this next appointment" and then it was never brought up again. And when i would bring it up myself they would go like "oh yeah, forgot i gave you that homework". So silly. She also asked if we ever went downstairs to the gym area to work-out together. No, we didn't. And i didn't even know that was an option. I just went there, yapped, and that was the appointment. She didn't even cover half the homework i had to do for today. I am actually upset. Do people just not do their job or something? I don't get it. You can say like "oh, she has so many appointments every week, there are so many people she has to remember". No. She doesn't. She does a lot of group things and i've seen her agenda. I think the problem was also that we had an appointment every other week. So i started to slip from her mind. She was more engaged in the beginning when we saw each other weekly. I absolutely hate this. I was so excited in the beginning just to be met with utter disappointment in the end. As always.

I didn't go to the gym cause i woke up too late and i also came back from my appointment kind of late so no bueno.

It is now 1AM and i got the genius idea to ask AI to help me out with structure. I asked it if there was a way to teach myself to be more focused on a task with some kind of punishment/reward system (for the brain). It spouted some info and said the info was based on "operant conditioning" which i had never heard about before. I then asked it to explain it to me. It did so in detail and even gave me an example of a daily/weekly schedule. It also asked if it should go more in depth AND IT DID WHEN I SAID YES. It created an entire schedule for me and talked about other things (eg. Eisenhower Matrix) when i told it that i had issues with motivation and it kept the topic on video editing. It's so helpful!!! I literally keep putting my hand in front of my mouth because i am so shocked on how helpful this is. More helpful than any therapist of any kind has ever helped me. 5% of the info it gave me was things i've heard in therapy before (like my physical therapy that wasn't really physical) and then went ten thousand times more in-depth about it. I am actually impressed!!! Maybe i don't need a psychologist after all.