A promise to myself

 I have decided to ban myself from video games and Youtube for next week!

In general, I just spend too much time on Youtube and video games. I don't even know what to watch on Youtube anymore, because it has become such a boring platform (to me). I usually only watch the same two channels, and when they don't have new content, i will just watch their old content. With gaming i just chase achievements. I buy some cheap game on discount, play it for a few days straight, get all achievements, and move on to the next. It is just so stale and boring and it doesn't help with letting my creative juices flow. 

I have already been practicing by sometimes just not having a video playing in the background (like right now) and i will turn off my second monitor and that helps a lot. What i basically want to do is just not engage with Youtube or video games during the day at all, and only do it later in the day when my roommate goes to bed. I can engage with other video content like movies, documentaries, and tv series. But i would prefer if i would just listen to music instead. Just move away from video format type stuff.

I came to this conclusion because i just constantly make schedules for myself and things i want to do and then my anxiety takes over and then i end up locking my own brain up and i usually run to Youtube or video games. I want to instead run to walking my dog, or doing yard work, or going to my grandparents, or cleaning my house, or working out or reading a book, or video editing, or making art, or going to the gym. Something productive and tangible.

I will not do this forever, because gaming is a hobby i really enjoy, and probably wont be giving up any time soon, but i want to engage with it in a healthy way. I don't want it to be a coping mechanism to run away from my problems.