I went to the gym today and i'm so happy i did! I first wanted to go around 12, but anxiety got me. So i started talking to AI and that helped a little. I think i ended up going around 1, and there were only old(er) people at the gym! It was only once i wanted to leave (around 2) that younger people came in. That also made it nicer. I also feel better. I did have to go lower on weights with everything. I felt so weak lol. When i first started doing the adductors i felt a sharp pain so i immediately went down in weight and kept that energy throughout all my sets. I feel my glutes and quads burning, so i guess i did something right. Someone on Youtube (i think it was Jeff Nippard?) suggested to do leg curls before doing leg press/squats to warm up the knees, and i did that today and i did notice that it was more comfortable to do the leg press, so im keeping that one in.
- 5 min elliptical
- Adductor 3x12 40kg
- Leg curls 4x12 30kg
- Sitting leg press 4x12 (70kg)
- Abductor 3x12 45kg
- Leg extension 3x12 (40kg)
I also had to do another set on the leg curls cause there was a woman wandering around the gym doing all the machines on the lowest weight. I think it was her first time at the gym and she had one of those intro appointments or something. Idk if the trainer made her do that or not, but it was just odd. But at least i realized she only did one set on all the machines she went on, so i knew that the minute i was done with my 4th set she would be done, and i was right! I also first didn't want to do the leg extensions, but i just forced myself to do them, and im happy i did. Without my warmup my entire workout was exactly 1 hour according to my Garmin, but ofc all the data went away again so i think i will have to keep the timer running as i bike home next time and then stop so i can see the data lol. Or just get my old phone out of the closet and use that for my Garmin eh.
This week should also be the last week that my roommate lives here. I woke up this morning and i was so happy about it. On Thursday the guy comes to check the boiler at his house, and then he should have hot water, and he can stay at his own place!!!
I am kind of annoyed with him though, because yesterday we went to the 2nd hand store to buy some stuff for his house. He got a tv stand, and some chairs, some flower pots i forced him to get, some plates, glass, mugs, and cutlery. So when we dropped stuff off at his place it was only 4 in the afternoon. Instead of him saying "let's clean the chairs and the tv stand" (the tv stand especially was kind of dirty on top) we just went home. I didn't want to be the one to tell him that we should clean it, because i am suggesting things all the time for him. And it's getting annoying. I told him in the car when we were going home that he shouldn't forget to check the manuals for the ikea furniture he got from his colleague. Cause he needs to get the screws and stuff for those things so he can put them together. So instead of doing that when he came home, he started watching youtube videos, and then after asked if we could game. After we gamed he ate something and watched something and then he fell asleep on the couch. It was only 9PM. I know for certain that he doesn't want to leave my house cause he wants the company and he likes that i do stuff for him. The funny thing is that he can stay if he wants, but he doesn't clean, he doesn't help around the house, and he is adding to my stress. If he would've only done those things, then he could've stayed. So he did this to himself basically.
The sad thing is that i got a video recommended yesterday where there were a bunch of friends who helped their depressed friend out by cleaning her entire kitchen. Why don't i have friends like that? My roommate saw me struggling for over a year. He saw me have mental breakdowns over the state of my apartment, and he did NOTHING. Like, he could ask his mom for advice or his sister. Heck, he could even go to the internet of all places to look up what he could do, but nop. I think there is something wrong with the wiring in his brain. He is so inactive. Only active when forced to be. Almost like an AI. It is very strange.
So August will be my cleaning month. The nice thing is tho, that my roommate is now moving to a big house and he has 2 rooms that he isn't doing anything with. So i want to store a bunch of my stuff there, so i can properly clean out my house. And then slowly, but surely, introduce my stuff back into my house and/or sell the things that i don't want anymore. The nice thing will be that i can clean out my storage room and i can store all my clothes there, until the mice are gone. The mice are such a nuisance and i don't know what to do with my clothes anymore. They are all stored in boxes now and i don't even know anymore what i have. So once the storage room is empty (or emptier), i can at least go through all my clothes. The ones i want to sell i can take to my roommate's house, and make pictures of them there in the empty rooms and then see if they sell. If they don't, then i will just donate them to a second hand store or whatever.
And then i can finally start streaming again too. I am excited for myself, but also scared that something is going to happen and that is going to ruin everything. Please, please, please don't let that happen.
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