PT: day 17 (upper body + eval)

Today was eval day, and we got the extension, yay!!! Eight more weeks to go. That means that we will end next year in January, which sounds crazy. For the next eight weeks we are going to focus more on me being able to go to the gym on my own, which i know i can do, the question is just, when will it go wrong and when will i stop going. I just realized this means that i have 2-3 months of free gym again since my PT's company pays for it LOL. That saves me so much money!!! Nice. (oh yeah, im on my period)

Today we did the same 'ol same 'ol. I told him what i thought about last Friday, with the intern, and that i didn't like how she made me feel ~different. We also talked about some other stuff, it was chill as always. I also figured out that the intern had some stuff wrong about doing certain exercises (which i already knew but when i told her she was like "no" and i didn't want to argue) (but when i told my PT he was like "yeah... she might've a way that works for her, but my way is better") (LOL). I did tell him i didn't really have DOMs so we both agreed to work harder, with higher weights. I just hate how i have muscle fatigue. I looked it up and it might be "central nervous system fatigue". It basically means that you have two muscle systems and one takes a bit longer to catch up when you are a beginner; once it catches up you wont feel that way anymore. So can't do much about that

• 10 minutes treadmill 
• 4x12 rows ??kg
• 4x12 lat pulldown ??kg
• 3x10 lie down dumbbell something 6kg
• 3x10 sit up dumbbell something 5kg
• 3x10 tricep pulldown idk 7.5kg

Some interesting tidbits behind the read more: why i didnt do adds today, something about dead hangs, exercising twice a week, eating and protein intake, why i didn't get cigs, and my neighbors moving away.

PT: Day 16 (with intern) (upper body)

Today i opted for upper body since i worked out alone on Tuesday and i did legs. The intern was there again today and she was the one that was guiding me through the work-outs. I didn't like her as much as the PT, since she is more focused on the therapeutic part of exercise. She also said she did a lot of cross-fit and her record in pull-ups are 18 (impressive). She just talked a lot and tried to make me "aware" of how much i am not aware of my body. I didn't really like that lol. I prefer my PT when he just talks to me about random stuff and encourages me through my workouts. It makes me feel more... normal? Idk. At one point, because she was talking so much about how "i should feel" and whatever, we were close to the end time so we did supersets. Cause she was like "you can do lie down dumbbell thingie and then do sit up dumbbell thingie right after" and i was like "so like a superset?" and she was like "no, just you do x for x muscles and then you do y for y muscles so your muscles can chill and we are done faster". This did work, but isn't that what a superset is? (i just checked and it is read more)

I also didn't push myself that hard on the treadmill cause i was talking to the intern so i walked on a slower speed for some time and i didn't notice so after we were done i went on the adductors to stretch my muscles and since the gym was basically empty i decided to also go on the abductors and i realized i could easily do 42.5kg which was pretty crazy. So next time 45kg? Maybe. And since it was empty i also went on the elliptical to sweat a little bit. And then i went home! 

Next Tuesday we will have the evaluation and as i said before, i hope i will get another 8 weeks with my PT. That is the best outcome. Because it will be just me and my PT i will probably tell him about the fact that i probably do not really like PMT cause it makes me so "aware", and i prefer to feel "normal". I think that has been always my thing though, with therapy too. I sit there and have to talk about all my faults and things i struggle with and it is already something i think about 247. Now i have to go outside and waste my time with someone else who makes me aware of all those things i am already aware about 247??? It makes me more anxious. I already had that feeling with therapy and stuff, but i am glad i am vindicated now, because i actually realize that yeah... this doesn't work. Maybe therapy really isn't for me and i just need a normal person to hang out with lol. So essentially what i need is a friend.

• 10 minutes treadmill 
• 4x12 rows ??kg
• 4x12 lat pulldown ??kg
• 3x10 lie down dumbbell something 4kg
• 3x10 sit up dumbbell something 4kg
• 3x10 tricep pulldown idk 7.5kg
• 3x15 adductors (25 > 27.5 > 27.5kg)
• 3x15 abductors (35 > 40 > 42.5kg)
• 10 minutes elliptical (5 - 1min) (6 - 4min) (7 - 1min) (8 - 2min) (7 - 1min) (6 - 1min)

PT: Day 9 (upper body) (but im injured)

Today was a whirlwind of crazy stuff happening tbh. Maybe not really, but it felt that way. Yesterday night i was reading through my blog and realized how i have kept my strength weirdly enough. 

Today i did:

• Treadmill 5 minute 5 incline 5kmh / 5 minute 5.5 incline, 5.5kmh
• LAT pulldowns 3x12
• ??????? 3x?
• ??????? 3x?
• ??????? 3x?
• Russian Twists 8kg 3x10
• Adductors 3x12 (25kg)