Brainstorm + schedule

I'm brainstorming right now what to do for food. I am thinking never to eat over 1,200 calories, since this will be for fat loss, so i have to be in a calorie deficit. And then a minimum of 60 grams of protein, but preferably a minimum of 80. 

I checked some of my old food diaries and on the days where i get around 1,200 calories and 100g+ protein i eat oatmeal with protein powder, protein snacks (protein chips/bars etc.), and pasta with seitan. Especially the seitan is only like 164 calories and 30g of protein. Compared to tofu minced meat with 178 calories and 19g of protein. So i think i need to invest in seitan.

Next to that, i was thinking to maybe, at the start of my day, make a protein shake made out of espresso powder + protein powder + cacao powder. It will be less calories than oatmeal, cause the oatmeal is like 166 calories and only gives 11g protein. The protein isn't even my problem in that equation, it is more the calories VS protein problem that i have.

And then i have the protein yogurt i sometimes eat, which is like 56 calories and 9.4g of protein per 100 grams. So i could eat more of that cause the calorie-protein ratio is amazing.

I just need to go to the store and stock up on those products lol. I'm checking online now too to see if i can get some good deals.

And then now for working out... i checked some of my old posts and saw the Will video i posted where he did leg day every 2 days (48 hours). So i will adopt that too. If a day falls in the weekend i will do a leg day at home, if it falls on a weekday i will do my leg day in the gym. Then i want to do upper body as well, at home, and then core days. And then i will run whenever i walk the dog at night. So it will look like this (starting tomorrow): 

Leg day
Thu → Sun (1) → Wed → Sat (2) → Tue → Fri (3) → Mon → Thu → Sun (4)

Upper body
Fri (1) → Thu (2) → Wed (3) → Tue (4)

Core
Sat (1) → Tue → Fri (2)→ Mon → Thu → Sun (3) → Wed → Sat (4)

I just have to lock in super hard for a month. I know i can do this. And i hope that once i get the ball rolling i can keep going. Aaaaaaaaaaa. I at least want to keep going with the leg days, everything else can die a quiet death for all i care. I need my booty back and i miss my thicker thighs.

External pressure, yay

At the beginning of this week i made the decision to only eat dinner every day, because i constantly feel bloated. This started happening shortly after Christmas. I think it's because i bought a lot of food for Christmas, and the weeks following Christmas i was eating all of it. I also stopped taking my ADHD medication, so it was also easier for me to overeat. I also made a new planning for working out, but i keep not doing it for some reason.

But behold! Today i got a letter from my psych place. They want to do a bodily screening to figure out where my anxiety problems come from, and that my body and/or health in general can aid to it. So, that will happen on the 16th of february! Which is 26 days away (almost 1 month). So i have 1 month time to shed weight and get healthier, because they WILL weigh me. And as previously seen, i care a lot about that. And i need external motivation to get things done.

SO... i was already thinking that maybe on my nightly walks with my dogs i will start running. She usually likes to take her time by sniffing things and we are often outside for 30-60 minutes. If i just do interval running (so run/walk cycles) i can build up my stamina, and then i can also do cardio again in the gym. Since i walk my dog at night almost every night, this will be a good thing i think.

I then also need to start lifting again. For some reason i constantly fret about it. I don't know why. It annoys the heck out of me, so i hope that the february appointment adds to the external pressure and overrides the anxiety. I guess we will see!

So i will start counting calories again, and i might do some fluid fasts or extreme low calorie diets so i can get my desired body back again.