Of course i planned today to be leg day and i wasn't able to fall asleep last night. I played the Sims 1 till 7AM. I was literally lying in bed thinking by myself:
In the morning i had an appointment with my physical therapist, and of course i was 5 minutes too late. I didn't really do any of my homework last week, which mainly consisted of meditation type of exercises. I didn't do any of them because just the thought of them makes me feel iffy. I don't like the thought of meditation, although i have seen a lot of people with ADHD claim that it helped them a lot. I think it is the whole "making yourself vulnerable" thing that makes me uneasy. I just want to go, go, go, constantly. I guess that way i feel like the horrible nagging thoughts in my head can't creep up on me? I don't know. I relayed this back to my physical therapist and she told me to find places in my house where it feels safe to do my exercises and also positions (eg. lying down, sitting up, knees against my chest). When i think about it now, maybe building a small blanket fort would help lol. I used to lock myself in my closet when i was younger to feel safe; away from my family. It is so disturbing looking back on it. But the therapist said whatever makes me feel safe, so i guess a blanket fort could work? I just have to clean up my room and figure out a way to make a quick make-shift blanket fort that i can set up whenever.
When i get back from walking the dog, i'll do the exercises my therapist told me to. I don't usually do them right after seeing her because she makes me do some at her place. But I put things off all the time and it's different doing them at home. So, after walking my dog, I'll do those exercises and then my workouts, and then protein, and then idk???
There was a slight change of plans! When i came back from my walk my roommate was already home so i didn't feel comfortable doing my therapy homework. I did end up working out. My roommate hung around while i did that and we watched American Psycho. It was fun rewatching it as i hadn't seen it in some time. Some time after my work-out i started to get horrible period cramps so i took a long warm shower and just chilled for the rest of the evening.
For my work-out today i ended up using lower weights, because i didn't want to stress my body too much. I felt like i could've easily done higher weights, so i ended up doing higher reps/sets instead. I am happy i didn't overdo it. I need to learn my limits. I also wrote down my calories and protein intake, but it is scattered over 2 different notebooks and my phone, so i will add that info tomorrow to this post once i have gathered it all together.
- warm-up 15 minutes
- squats 4x12 (6kg)
- romanian deadlift 4x12 (6kg)
- hip thrusts 4x12 (20kg)
- bulgarian split squats 3x6 (7.5kg)
- stretch 15 minutes
Calories: // Protein: g
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