Update post

I just updated a bunch of posts cause i haven't really been writing a lot anymore. I am just so tired all the time. I have been watching my protein again so i hope that when i up my protein i will feel better. Oh and my second monitor broke, so productivity wise i feel 0 motivation to do anything cause multitasking is hard with one monitor. I also just want to keep up the work-out schedule i have now because i am seeing a change in my body so i don't want to change anything. I hope i will get over my tiredness, otherwise i will probably just go to the doctor and check my blood levels again, to see if i am still lacking something (maybe i am and that's where my stomachaches come from idk). 

I have also been going to some therapist appointments with a bunch of different people cause they are trying to figure out what type of therapy i need. I will spare you the stupidity i've heard from some of these therapists (the fact that they can call themselves "psychologists" is laughable) (they argued, because one of my psychologists stood behind me at some point and it made me uncomfortable, that it was because of my anxiety and not because it is just a normal human behavioral feeling to just feel some type of level of uncomfortableness if someone just stands behind you and you aren't in a store setting) (then another psychologist, who was also present, said that i had too much of a fixation on wanting to be "normal") (how are these people even real?).

Oh and, in March i will start with my ADHD group that will run till June and i'm kinda excited for that idk why.

Leg day at home

I feel a bit better but the nausea is still there. I have no idea what it could be. I don't feel sick otherwise. There's like a pit in my stomach. I hope it goes away soon.

Bulgarian split squats 3x12 (10kg)

Romanian Dead Lifts 1x20 (bar) 4x12 (20kg)

Bodyweight squats 1x20

Barbell squats 3x10 (12kg)

Hip thrusts 3x12 (20kg)

Wasn't really feeling the barbell squats today. I should've probably gone down a weight, but i didn't want to. After i did hip thrusts and omg i hate doing them so much. I wish i had a hip thrust machine or a smith machine to make it easier aaaaaaaaa.

PT Day 41: Upper body

Yesterday we did cardio again and today i was late. I felt like i got hit by a truck when i woke up and i felt nauseated and had lower back pain (i've been having that since this weekend). Idk what is going on. I feel like it might be that my body is growing, but since i am not doing any core exercises my core is lagging behind and that is why i get lower backpain? Idk. So i guess i need to think about including some core stuff in my (already kinda busy) schedule.

• 3x10 assisted pullups 35kg
• 3x12 lie incline dumbbell chest? 7kg
• 3x12 shoulder press 5kg
• 3x12 lat pulldown 25kg
• 3x10 rows 25kg
• 3x12 dumbbell alternate bicep? 6kg
• 3x12 triceps idk 7.5kg

Also, it didn't matter that much that i was late. Last week our PT asked my gym buddy what he needs from him as they enter the second phase. My gym buddy said that he mainly needed "lifestyle guidance" especially in terms of his diet, so i recommended he would start a food diary; not necessarily writing down the calories (as that can be overwhelming) but just writing down what he eats during the week. So they agreed on doing that. He kept at it the entire week! And today they ended up discussing it. So just as i got into the gym they were on their first exercise so i wasn't that much behind. But since i didn't feel too well i ended up taking longer rests and stuff so once they were done i still had 2 exercises and our PT had to leave. My gym buddy stayed until i was done which was nice. I also basically went down on almost every exercise in weight since i wasnt feeling it (at least the machine weights, not dumbbells). 

And as you can see the PT also kept his word and changed the order of our workouts so it would be easier to do certain things. I honestly feel like we do too much for our upper body day lol and it would be easier if we could split them into two days but whatever. I do feel and see a change in my upper body so i guess it works!?

PT Day 40: Legs

Yesterday we did cardio and today our PT let us know that he is sick so he ended up sending me our work-out overview from last week so we could write down what we did and also see what we already had done last week. I wrote it in a lil notebook that i have and i managed to push my gym buddy to go higher in weight in almost everything! For some weird reason we were very in the zone today and i also felt like i didn't have to have as long of a break between reps/sets as i usually do, which was kind of nice!

• 10 minute cardio (warmup)
• Abductor 1x12 (40kg) 1x12 (42.5kg) 1x12 (45kg)
• Lying Leg press 1x15 (40kg) (warmup) 2x12 (60kg) 1x12 (70kg)
• Adductor 1x12 (40kg) 1x12 (42.5kg) 1x12 45kg
• Leg curl 3x10 (32.5kg)
• Calf raise 1x12 (10kg) 2x10 (20kg)
• Leg extension 1x12 (35kg) 3x10 (40kg) 1x30kg myo reps

We ended up doing the calf raise on my recommendation since my gym buddy said the hamstring curl gave him knee pain. And since he doesn't do anything else for his calves i felt that it would be a good exercise to include.

Leg day at home

Bulgarian split squats 3x12 (7.5kg)

Romanian Dead Lifts 1x20 (bar) 2x12 (14kg) 2x12 (18kg)

Bodyweight squats 1x20

Barbell squats 2x12 (10kg) 2x12 (12kg)

Seated barbell good morning 3x12 (12kg)

PT Day 39: Upper body

Yesterday i did cardio with my gym buddy for an hour or so. Also i realized that with the assisted pull-ups i would usually be exhausted at the end because of all the other workouts so i asked the PT to look at our exercises and maybe make a new plan for us. He said he will look at it and figure something else out for next week!

• 3x15 lat pulldown 30kg
• 3x10 rows 30kg
• 3x12 lie incline dumbbell chest? 7kg
• 3x12 sit up dumbbell alternate bicep? 6kg
• 3x12 shoulder press 5kg
• 3x12 triceps idk 7.5kg
• 1x20 assisted pullups 40kg 1x12 35kg 1x8 40kg 1x10

PT Day 38: Legs

• 10 minute cardio (warmup)
• Adductor 1x12 42.5kg 2x12 40kg
• Sit Leg press 1x15 40kg (warmup) 3x12 60kg 
• Abductor 3x12 45kg
• Leg curl 3x12 30kg
• Hamstring curl 3x8 10kg
• Leg extension 1x12 30kg, 3x8 40kg 

Cardio (alone)

I was supposed to have a cardio day today with my gym buddy, but when i was at the gym he wasn't there. So i checked my phone and an hour before we were supposed to meet up he texts me saying he "ate something wrong" so he couldn't come. UGH. Well, i was already at the gym so i decided to just go for it and did cardio. I think i did cardio for about 45 minutes. I was sweating, but i tried to not go too hard cause i still had DOMs from leg day yesterday lol. 

I can definitely tell that i have less energy now that i am doing so much more working out during the week, but i still want to persevere. I hope it will get better now that i will eat normally again. I didn't start counting calories again, but i will probably start next week. I'm just so tired lol.

At home legs (tired)

I was so tired today when i woke up. Yesterday (to celebrate) i ordered some fries with some greasy snacks so it might've been that. I got stomachaches too LOL. Never eating greasy shit again!!!! I actually had an appointment this morning but i just cancelled and went back to sleep. I got up at like 3PM!!! So i instantly went into work-out mode. Did my work-outs, walked the dog, waited for my roommate to come home, hung out with him, and when he left for his guitar class i showered. 

• 15-30 minute warm-up
• Bulgarian split squats 3x10 7.5kg
• Barbell squats 1x20 bar only, 3x12 10kg
• Romanian Dead Lifts 1x15 10kg, 2x12 14kg, 2x12 18kg

PT Day 37: Upper body + weigh in

So yesterday i basically had no sleep because of my next door neighbor. I had to call the cops again, which is always fun. I then had a meeting in town and afterwards i went to the gym with my gym buddy. We were both not really feeling it but we still went and did stuff so i guess that is good.

Today i had my weigh-in, which the PT told me last week. So when i came in i immediately said "weigh-in!". I barely ate this weekend (again). But at least i can now count calories and protein again. I am just gonna start tomorrow cause it is easier. I am now sipping on a protein shake which i haven't done in a while. 

• 3x15 lat pulldown 30kg
• 3x10 rows 30kg
• 3x12 lie incline dumbbell chest? 7kg
• 3x12 sit up dumbbell alternate bicep? 6kg
• 3x12 shoulder press 5kg
• 3x6 overhead tricep idk 5kg
• 1x20 assisted pullups 40kg 1x12 35kg 1x8 40kg 1x10

The funny thing about the weigh-in was that i obviously don't look at the numbers, but i heard them murmur next to me. And my PT told me afterwards that the guy who did the measurements said that the measurements were weird and off because it showed that i LOST muscle mass, which made no sense to him cause he said "i see her working out and she is training hard so that makes no sense", which is kind of sweet and it is nice to know that people see that i am trying to work hard. So i wonder now if it is because i stopped counting protein which means i was consuming less protein and that's why my measurements were off. I guess we will see. I might let myself get weighed again on the last day that i will see the PT, because i am curious if my stats will change at all. 

I was also so hungry before i left for the gym. Yesterday when i got home from the gym i basically laid in bed and slept the entire evening. At one point i got up because my roommate was going to bed so i ate some granola and an apple. So i barely ate yesterday and the day before so i was starving. So after the gym today i went to the store to buy some stuff and i wasn't even in the mood to buy anything unhealthy, which was weird, but good. I was daydreaming this morning about eating all this bad food but once i was at the store i didn't feel like eating anything, so that's why i am sipping on my protein shake right now.

Also yesterday i wanted to start with my leg day at home, and then leg day at the gym, OR leg day at the gym + leg day at home once i got home, but because of no sleep + the appointment i just dropped it. And i was like "i'll start next week". But at least tomorrow i will do leg day and then on Thursday i will do cardio + upper body. I also need to start doing core again. The 100 core reps a day is something that i would like to keep so i might just implement that. I also want to kind of get calisthenics thingies. You know, those bars, so i can maybe do dips on them and stuff. 

PT Day 36: Leg Day

On Thursday my gym buddy and i went to the gym for cardio and we were on the treadmill for 1 hour. I cycled between different speeds and inclines and was sweating at the end so i guess that was a good thing.

I also know now why i was so tired and felt out of it cause i finally got my period (i should've gotten it 2 weeks ago but oh well). So all is good now. 

Today i had leg day with the PT and it went alright. I do feel like i am getting weaker now that i am not eating as much protein anymore. My PT wanted to weigh me but i told him next week so on Tuesday i will have my weigh in. So i think from Tuesday on i will start counting calories again and counting my protein. 

• 10 minute cardio (warmup)
• Adductor 1x12 (37.5kg) 2x12 (40kg)
• Lying Leg press 1x15 (40kg) (warmup) 3x12 (60kg )
• Abductor 1x15 (42.5kg) 2x12 (45kg)
• Leg curl 3x12 (30kg)
• Kickback 2x10 (7.5kg) 1x8 (10kg)
• Leg extension 1x12 (30kg) 3x8 (40kg) 1x21 (30kg myo reps: 5 5 3 3 3 2)