The last time i went to the gym was on a Friday as well and from my notes i went at around 02.40PM and it started to become less crowded around 03.15PM. So today i planned to go around 03.15PM.
I ended up going at 03.30PM. There were again not many people, mainly men. And everyone was old. But not like elderly. At one point there was a man and i realized he had flipflops on and later on he was next to me doing leg extensions and i saw his crusty feet and toenails and it was so gross!!! I don't understand how he didn't get kicked out of the gym. Later on i saw him praying?! So strange. I live in a white small farmer town and we have one living facility for eastern europeans who come to work here and then there are some refugee centers scattered around. I'm going to assume he was from the refuge center.
- Adductor 1x15 (30kg), 3x12 (32.5kg)
- Leg curls 1x12 (25kg), 1x10 (27.5kg), 1x12 (25kg)
- Sitting leg press (feet low) 3x12 (50kg)
- Abductor 1x12 (35kg), 1x12 (40kg), 1x12 (42.5kg), 1x10 (45kg)
- Leg extension 3x8 (35kg)
- RDL 3x12 (14kg)
My addies really hurt today. When i went on the adductor machine i had to put the machine on a lower number (7) so i barely had ROM, but after that i could put it back on 6. I usually have it on 5 i believe. I didn't try to push myself too hard today. I just wanted to get it done. On the leg curls i could do 27.5kg, but my leg felt a bit weird (like i was gonna pull a muscle), so i quickly went back to 25kg. At home i did RDLs. I first wanted to do 14kg, but again, don't want to push myself, so i went to 10kg.
The gym was overall really quiet as i said, it was the same in May so Friday afternoons are a good time to go! I now wonder what Friday evenings are like.
At one point two women (late 20s? early 30s?) came in and they were wearing really tight shorts with a sports bra and they started running on the treadmill and everything jingled. When they later walked away there was so much jiggle too. Like why would you do that to yourself in a gym setting where it is predominantly men. I do think women should be able to wear whatever they want, but i also know what men are like. I often wish for a female only gym cause i know it would be less crowded during the day and i would personally feel more comfortable wearing shorts and i wouldn't feel uncomfortable for other women.
I also think i will measure myself on Sunday. Like my stomach, thighs, butt etc. cause last time i really saw a huge growth in muscle and a lot of fat reduction, but i don't know how much my legs grew obviously. I could do it today but im gonna assume my legs are still pumped from the work-out so i'll do it on Sunday. Would be cool to see what i will be like 6 months from now.
Currently i am not too happy with my stomach (i have a small fat pouch) and when i sit i have too many fat rolls and it's uncomfortable. I always like it when you can see my clavicles clearly, feels dainty and feminine idk, so i would like them to poke through more which is mainly weight loss. My butt is way smaller. It's not comfortable when i sit. And before i quit my thighs were chafing lol, cause that's how big they were. I currently have a proper thigh gap, but i would like to close it and have big beefy quads. My lower legs also easily gain weight for some reason (so odd) so when i lose more weight i will see it in my stomach and lower legs, which are my two problem areas tbh.
I just really have to start counting calories and stuff. I don't really do it right now cause i barely eat anyways cause of the heat. And you can think like "oh just force yourself, you gotta get your protein!" but i think that was also one of the reasons why i stopped being serious about the gym: literally cause i kept forcing myself to be perfect and do everything perfectly. Like thinking about making my own protein smoothie makes me anxious for a variety of reasons, so instead i buy these premade protein drinks that have 20g of protein in them. I have these yogurts that i eat in the morning with about 14g of protein and i add 10g of soy crisps to make it 20g so i am adding protein whenever i can. I am just not obsessively counting just yet. I will leave that for later: when i go to the gym seriously again and also when the heat has gone down and i can eat properly.
Maybe people will see this as a "cope" or whatever, but to me it is just not overburdening myself so i again do not go to the gym for almost a whole year or so. I don't want to repeat that again. I don't even like going to the gym; i like the concept of it i guess. I wish there was no one else in the gym. I wish, if there were other people, that i at least had some friends at the gym. I wish that i didn't felt a sense of impending doom whenever i do an exercise. I wish there was 0 chance of injury whenever i do an exercise. I wish i didn't have to stuff my face with protein and carbs whenever i exercise. Like... there's a lot of downsides to it, but i just have to push through you know? Make it a thing that is just part of my weekly routine; like grocery shopping, or doing a hair mask or whatever. It needs to become mundane, normal... i guess.
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