Iron Grind: Day 1 (glutes) 🔴

Soo, i'm back and so is my roommate. The 2ish weeks that i was alone were nice, but i don't feel like i've done a lot/made much progress. I am enrolled in the ADHD course now tho and my anxiety therapy started which is nice so at least those two things are going. The sessions with my PT will end next week i believe, so that is kind of a bummer.

Today i wanted to start with being more strict with my diet again and working out more in general. I was supposed to meet up with my gym buddy but he send me a text saying he slept bad last night, which was kind of a cop out cause whenever we train with the personal trainer he doesn't cancel... even if he has slept bad that night. So yeah.

We were supposed to meet at 12 but because of his text i stayed in bed (cause i also slept bad last night lol but i was still gonna go) and i woke up later so that kind of sucks. I will get ready now and go anyways. I will do my usual cardio routine (10 mins elliptical, 10 mins steps). And then go on to a leg routine. I was thinking to the the hip adductor and the high position leg press for the butt. And then come home and do hip thrusts and walking lunges. In the gym i can also do back extensions on that chair looking thing, but i haven't done that before but i think it will be a good thing to do in the gym later on to add to my routine to build my glutes. I shouldn't be in the gym longer than 30 minutes probably depending on how many people there are hugging the machines, since my gym buddy isn't there and i can just do everything on my own so it shouldn't take too much time out of my day.

I also want to eat better/more boring (read: more protein) for max gains so that is coming too. TBC.

Annoyed

So today i got up too late and i also lost my earphones yesterday so i knew i had to look for them so i was scared i would be too late at the gym... but to my surprise i got a text at 12.15PM saying "the trainer and i could go earlier so we are already at the gym!". And i was like "excuse me". I've gotten at least 5 texts over the last 2 months from our trainer asking me if i could be there at 12 on Fridays. And every time i texted him back and said "sure! but i think my gym buddy gets up at 12PM". And usually he would text me at 11. Whenever i would get the text i would get up immediately, just in case my gym buddy would be awake and we could go earlier. 

But today... nop! No message. Nothing. Just literally at 12.15 "we could be there earlier, so we already started". Wtf does that mean? I was actually annoyed. Had they texted me at 11 i would've gotten up at that time cause i was awake but i kept slumbering cause i knew i had the time for that. I also went to bed really late last night cause some stuff happened that was out of my control. Either way, super scummy idk. I feel disrespected and i also feel that it was inconsiderate of them. I haven't texted back yet. I just checked and at around 1.30 i got a message that they were gonna leave the gym. Cool. Good for you!

I'm not even in the mood anymore to go to the gym. At 4 i have to pick up the nanny dog so i think i will just clean up the living room and do some laundry and then at 4 pick up the dog and then i'll do a leg day at home tomorrow, or maybe i'll even go to the gym tomorrow. I've never gone in the weekend before so i wonder what that is like. 

On Monday my roommate will come back home and he is free that week so we will probably be doing stuff that week. After next week i want to start with a different training and eating schedule and i also want to try and start creatine. 

Vacation!!!

I brought my friend to the train station today cause he is going to the airport to go visit his family for about 2 weeks. Which means... i have 2 weeks off!!! At first i was thinking about cancelling appointments and just have at least one week to myself, but i think that isn't necessary. And it will help probably with staying in the flow, but i mean, i can always cancel appointments if i really have to. I don't think i will really miss his presence or realize that he's gone until the weekend, cause that's when he is around the most. I have a weird sense of excitement that he is gone and i feel motivated to do things. And on top of that, i can do my nightly walks with my dog and smoke and i don't have to be scared that he might smell the smoke on me or whatever. It will feel nice to just be able to be in my house and to not have to take into consideration that i have to be quiet or not leave my stuff laying around cause someone is living with me. Like, for example, after i dropped off my friend i went to a store to pick up some stuff like shampoo and cleaning things and i didn't unpack my bags. They are just laying in the living room. And i know i will unpack them at some point today, but i don't feel like it right now, because i, for example, have to walk my dog and get dressed for the gym, and i also want to stretch so i feel like those things are more important and i can clean up the bags later. Even before i go to bed if i wanted to. 

Ever since my friend lives with me i constantly feel like i have to clean up NOW, and i have to make sure i do things NOW. Not because i necessarily have to, but i know that if i slack for one second he will see that as a "signal" that he can slack too and it is really tiring. A normal person would think like "oh, she will clean that up later no problem". But he sees it as a "oh she didn't clean it up, that means that next time i can also just leave my stuff laying around and she can't complain about it". It's kind of like that, and it is tiring to live like this. I wonder how different my weeks will look. I never was really on time at the gym ever since i started training with my personal trainer, so i wonder if i can be on time now every time, since my roommate isn't here so it is easier to just leave a mess.

The problem is also, when i lived on my own and i would make a mess, it would be like "oh i'll clean that later, and if not later, i will clean it tomorrow or whenever i have time this week". But i can't do that. I have to clean it the same day. So that gives me additional stress. So i hope i will feel better this week (and next week).

I kind of hope i can get to clean the entire house this week, so next week i can focus on other things, or i can just relax. I also have a bunch of laundry i can get through, and i have an extra drying rack now, and it since i don't need the extra space i can just put it wherever i want, so i hope to get through all the laundry this week. Aaaaaa so much to do! But first, today is upper body day so gotta do that and then we'll see.

Edit 23 march: My roommate/friend came home last week. He has been home for about a week now. He had this week off too. It was annoying to have him back again. We did go to the city and shopped, went to IKEA at some point, and also cleaned the yard, but it wasn't "more fun" just because he was there. Every night it was the same thing where we would sit on the couch and just watched something on Youtube. I felt uninspired and dead inside. I also didn't get to clean my entire apartment so there is still stuff to do, bleh. At least from tomorrow on he will go to work again so i will have the day to myself! I will probably also start trying to get up earlier. I know it will be difficult for me to do, but i feel like it is imperative for me to do so, if i want my days to be functional, and my days to be mine.