In my previous post i caught you up on what i have been doing this month. The gym becomes less and less attractive to me because of the people there and also the warm weather. The warm weather mainly attributes to it being really warm (doh) but then having to wear less clothes. My period is coming up so i have been pretty bloated the last couple of days and it makes me insecure. When i went to the gym the other day i went in a crop tank top with baggy pants and it made me feel pretty good. I just don't want to go in shorts or whatever and i feel like people will judge me, which is silly, i know. People will always judge you no matter what. But it's just a very body conscience thing, especially cause there are so many young people at my gym and i hate it. I am still trying to figure out the "quiet times" but now that summer vacation is around the corner i feel like it is becoming worse. I am also extremely pale and i don't tan easily which attributes to me not wanting to show my legs in the gym lol.
I should just try to go every day and at least do cardio (cause i really need to lose some fat around my waist) and then that way i can also gauge if there are many people. I think usually it is the most quiet around 12, every day, except probably the weekend.
I also wanted to go to the gym today to do leg day but my DOMs are insane. That's why i wanted to keep my squatting leg days and stuff for in the weekend lol. So today i will take a rest day and i will see how i feel tomorrow cause then i'll just go to the gym. It seems very not-crowded on Fridays since it's weekend and no one spends time at the gym then.
And on Saturday i will be able to pick up my new lovely dog! I am super excited for it. I have been cleaning my apartment for 2 weeks now cause i want everything to be perfect for her. Today i want to go to the store to get her some new bowls and stuff. And i still have to clean the rug in my living room cause i had a dog i baby sat a few weeks ago and she lost a lot of hair. All that hair is in the rug and wont come out!!! I read on the internet that you can remove it more easily with laundry detergent so i need to try that.
I also want to really get my backyard ready for when it becomes warmer weather so i can sit outside with my dog. I need to get a bigger extension cable so i can sit outside with my laptop and at least work on stuff while hanging out with her. I believe last summer i saw this huge bed/chair thing that you could put in your backyard. It was like a little dome you could sit in, and if you are small enough, even lay in. It was big enough that you could drape a mosquito net over it to keep mosquitos out and i really wanted to buy it but it was so, so expensive. I made a picture of it and i still dream of it every summer. It would be perfect to hang out in with my doggie and work with it on my laptop especially since it is a dome, you wouldn't have to worry about the sun and stuff.
Ah i keep rambling haha. I still feel like i have so much to do before the dog comes but i basically have everything in working order. I might need to go to the store to make sure i have enough groceries that will last me the entirety of next week so i don't have to leave her alone at home next week to go grocery shopping. I also don't know how she will do alone, if she is destructive, if she is a barker. I don't know anything about her!!!
But yeah anyways, my DOMs today are horrible. When i want to sit down on the toilet i have to hold on to something to lower myself down LOL, and the same when getting back up again. Doing squats and RDLs and stuff really kill me every time, but that's a good thing. I realized that my body has changed a lot the last few months and i am really proud of myself. I also realized how much my glute muscles have grown. When i push down on my butt now i can't feel the bone anymore which is pretty insane. It feels like a little cushion now. Even though my butt isn't that huge, there is definitely a difference with how it was before and i am excited to see how much more it is going to change! I also see a big difference in my quads. My legs are slimmer now but the top side of my quads are bulkier. I am getting into a really nice shape and am excited to see where this will take me in the next months. I am especially excited for winter because it will be easier for me to bulk up (eat more without being self conscience about it) so it will be easier to gain muscle i think. Also, it will probably be easier to go to the gym.
All in all, i feel like a lot of good things are happening right now. I am starting to feel like my old self again. I can get stuff done. I am working out more often. I am more focused on my new dog now. I have prospects. I am excited to grow in terms of fitness, and i also hope that the next half of this year i will grow in my working field. And also i hope, of course, that i will have a nice relationship with my dog. My best friend might move here also after summer so there are so many things i can now look forward to! I am just a bit scared cause whenever i am this happy something shitty happens that always punches me down again, but we will see.
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